Celebrations and Cheer

Have a happy new year!!!

31 days in December,  I can't believe that it has flown in. We wait all year for the one day that we can lavish presents on our most loved people that we share our lives with. I couldn't believe the gifts I got, I was so happy. I couldn't believe that my boyfriend, best friends and family actually got me presents that depicted my visual image. Feminine, vintage, womanly. All the gifts just shouted "me" to me. I thought for ages that no one really paid attention to my style or maybe what I like and dislike, but I felt terrible when present after present people seemed to give me gifts that I would have chosen for myself.

But the question is you wait all year for this one day... of present giving and food sharing BUT if you had the chance... would you say yes to everyday being Christmas? I have to say no, then it would become just like any other day. No Christmas Glitz and Glam, no angel hair on the tree. No stuffed food with lashings of luxury items. No once a year, sigh of relief when you climb into bed, either drunk or exhausted from washing all the pots and pans and say "thats it...over for another year"

Needless to say I do enjoy Christmas but I suppose everyone eventually thinks "thank goodness that month where we decided to put a living tree in our family room, which we then decorated is over".... but yet the madness doesn't end!

Boxing Day sales? Cramped shopping conditions as a frenzy of manic shoppers search for that last "size 6" coat. You could almost scream and no one would hear you through the drone of the tills clicking and the exchange of money. Along with the question of "well... your new years resolution?" Or personally for me "well Jane its only 27 days until you are 21!" I can't believe that I am turning 21, but indeed that post/topic is for another day altogether!

For NYE I am going to a charity event for Marie Curie Hospice, which is a brillant cause. This led me to re-think my silly "i shall stop fishing" NY Resolutions and I have decided to draw up at least three small things that I hope to aim/achieve in 2012.

a) continue my uni work to a high standard
b) start in the tourism board placement
c) Be less of a push over

But I want to remain positive along with grateful that I have once again got better and indeed I am decreasing my cyclosporin so now im taking 75mg both morning and night. I just can't believe what a difference over half a year makes to anyones life, I can't believe it was 8 months or just over, that I was getting my transplant. I might also enquiry how i can write a letter to the donor.

Toodles for now! Happy New Year to you all! Hope 2012 is either better for you (if you didn't have a great 2011) or continues to be good (if you had a good 2011)......

My Festive Story...

"HoHo"

Recently I have started to draw designs on my nails, and this has been the first day I have remembered to actual bluetooth my photos (from my mobile) onto my lappy wappy. Anyway the red nail design was my second attempt (the hand pictured is my left hand) I wanted to do small snowflakes for the entire hand but it took too long. In the end the left hand had "HoHo" and on the right hand I put "Xmas" with another snowflake on the thumb.

Reindeer?

I did like this design but then it takes a long time (three coats with red) then glitter and painting. My designs usually last about two weeks and people do seem to like them. Below are photos of my other nail designs.

I also took photo's of my Charlie before uploading the photos of my nail on blogger. I know I always upload photos of him, but I can't resist his face and I want to (even though this sounds highly morbid) collect photos of him so I can look back on them if anything happens to him. Depressing I know!


 I can't believe that Santa is leaving his home in 10 hours. It seems unreal. Meanwhile I lie in bed and watch tv programmes on Christmas food. I will probably write another blog post to make up for not coming on Christmas Day.

Have a lovely Christmas Eve Eve....x





Ps I learnt my nail designs from youtube and want to give a shoutout to "cutepolish" on youtube!!! so simple!!!!

Scattering, Basting, Glazing your Christmas

I am an avid fan of all things food. I wouldn't be the type of person who makes delicious food that turns people speechless as their taste buds start to do a dance of joy, but I do love watching recipes whilst I drool not only in envy but also in hunger. Food programmes never fail to make me hungry.

In the run up to Christmas people started to get more and more frantic. When I panic, I cook. Simple you say? "When will I find the time to get my gifts for people?" Well that is where Lorriane (link below) comes in. She not only shows you lovely food, that can make anyone drool but also small cheap gifts that are adorable to give to any friend. Home made gifts Jane? Well its a recession and also what happened to Christmas meaning family and not presents?

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If Lorriane isn't your cup of tea, I am also going to recommend Hairy Biker's. You can't go wrong with two jolly guys who talk so passionately about British food and the real experience of cooking.

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And if that still doesn't grab you with mouth watering food then Nigella is the final card I give to you. Yes it might have been orginally aired in 2008 but who doesn't love a bit of  Nigella in the kitchen? She might make wives jealous and husbands gaze at the television in sheer awe, whilst Nigella makes food into some sort of mouth watering pleasure experience with her tone of voice and how she describes ingredients.

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If you are looking for luxury this Christmas then desserts are a must. I haven't made up my mind about what dessert I want to try making this year, as its the first year I am either not ill or bald... a christmas hat doesn't look as nice on a bald head of a female. Anyway I can't wait for Christmas. As i write this its the 23rd December. I can't believe this time last year I was in hospital trying to contain my sickness whilst i was attached 24hrs a day to a drip. Actually this time tomorrow I will ONLY just be leaving the hospital, where (this is 100% true!) the snow slowly began to fall.

Looking back on that night (if i didnt want to vomit with every step I took) I would have thought someone was trying to make me smile.

Till next time (maybe I will have my dessert done and photos of the dessert.... Im hoping to do Ferroche Rocher cheesecake.... mmhhh)

Eat, drink and be merry?

Christmas is now FIVE days away. I went to the hospital today and everything was fine. They want me to decrease my morning dose of anti rejection tablet from 100mg to 75mg (just like my night meds atm)... Im not happy about that but I'm trying to not let it get to me. I don't think they understand that I have only just re-worked my skin pattern to get used to the whole 25mg of lower anti rejection which alone has let the donor cells attack me more and on top of that they are trying to decrease my steroids too fast. They never really let me have any peace with my skin, I never knew you could hate skin this much when its being troublesome, like a spoilt child huffing at the present they wanted but didn't get.

I'm trying to see the positives today but in general I'm tired and the hospital annoyed me. Although on wards and upwards I was in hospital this time last year having chemo over Christmas so I'm going to see the good side and be happy!

Speaking of happiness I got a email to say that the tourism centre loved my newsletter that I re-worded (to help them out) so I can't wait to see my actual words published in a newsletter that NI tourists will read for the duration of Winter 2011. I am really looking forward to doing more work to add to my CV as I think it will not only give me more self confidence but also gain a better understanding whether I want to go into that type of marketing when I graduate.

Share the happiness?

I love watching Christmas food programmes on the run up to christmas and have found a new food love of ... carrot and swede mash. Delish and whats better than Marks And Spencers Count On Us carrot and swede which is not only tasty but low fat and low calorie. Perfect!!! I can't stop eating at the moment, so I hope by the time Christmas Day comes I will eat less as I really don't want to be putting on the weight I have been working hard to keep off.

I know what I will be drinking LARGE amounts of... Diet Coke. Ice cold.... like carmel gold

Till next time (maybe I will not be as bad with my skin? Fingers crossed for me?)

Jane

Small Steps... look back at how far you have come

Woh if I was to look back from a year ago I can't believe I have come this far. Being ill really tests your sanity that is for sure. But since its Christmas I will be going to the clinic tommorrow so I will write more medically tommorrow (update you on my happenings)

Ohh looky here! theres my charlie mcfarly! this was me and him last year! hes is sooo prettyyy! just looking at his face makes me smile.

 I have sat looking at this blog post for over two hours and I am afraid I have no creative tonight. So I will leave you with photos of my and my charlie dog. I will post about my hospital tommorrow at some point. Alas I may just lead a boring life and have nothing new to report on.

Toodles for now.

I'll huff and puff...and blow your house down?

Whether the weather (tongue twister) is just having a little chuckle or has had a horrible week, she is NOT happy. I think she plans to huff and puff all night along with bring her little friend snow along with her. Or so met office tells me. Although I am 100% sure that the weather is being mean because she is playing tricks with my lamp, radio and laptop charger, whilst she tumbles through every alley way leaving behind a angry air of calm.

This weather calls for hot water bottles, warm fires, and plenty of layers. Now you ask me, "Jane what did you do today?" ... Well bloggy, I did some santa work, applied for a few placements, got my consumer behaviour mark and had dinner with my sister.

Now im looking up 2 in 1 hoods and scarfs because this weather is INSANE! my mirror jus rattled (due to the wind speed) eeep!boohoo.teddy-bear-hooded-scarf what do you think? I can decide on what colour best suits me.

Also this blog is going to be very short as my hands are numb from the cold (my bed is situated under my window).... alas the wind has won. I hope the snow doesnt come too soon (met office info again)

Well not long till crimbo, but I haven't seen much festive spirit or love from other people. Seems the world is still a bit too self loved up with everyone only wanting the best for themselves. Makes me hope I never become that.

night.....(sorry for short end: my fingers are actually painful from cold)

Are you having a holly jolly Christmas?

Diet Coke Santa?

To most people (who celebrate Christmas) it would be 12 days until Santa appears during the night and sets out bucket loads of cash without any bags of coal. Wishful thinking? Maybe...but then if you never ask, you never get.

Of course I am only joking, since I have become older over the years, I find the actual lead up to Christmas more exciting than actual Christmas Day. Christmas Day feels like it needs to be all family orientated, cheering along with music, and plates piled high with fluffy potatoes and juicy turkey. Instead I see it as awkard moments of opening up presents whilst the present giver looks on anticapting your every expression on your face.

No one can say that they havent got a "smile" which they use when they open a present and think "what made this person think i even wanted a deer skin hat?". A extreme example, but then I have learnt over the years, if you don't HINT HINT HINT during the lead up to Christmas, then people won't really catch on about what you want/need to make your visual apperance or happiness level increase.

I do however bask in the atmosphere of christmas, the crackling fire whilst the aroma of yankee candle Christmas Eve fills the room with warmth. We must not forget the twinkling lights of every christmas tree you can see in your neighabourhood and the crystal frost that slowly covers the tops of cars and roofs, whilst chimmneys puff in anger at being used FINALLY after waiting all year.

Scrooge?

Christmas to every individual brings different memories, different things people look forward to and of course the idea that once its over the entire population sits down and goes "i can't believe its over for another year".....

What is your favourite part of Christmas? The food? The gifts? Maybe everything?

What though is your scrooge element? Taking down the tree? Driving in the frost? Feeling your toes go painful from being so cold?

Whatever it is, I would love to know.

Till next time.....

The weather outside is frightful.....

The last post I must admit was very.... depressing. But then again I felt 100% better after I had typed that whole story out. I asked the same question to my current boyfriend (i make that sound like i have reams of men hiding in cupboards...I don't) and he said no one wud realise if he vanished either. I think that made me feel a bit more "normal" (as no one can really be completely normal)

The weather however can only resemble the emotion: rage. The wind is howling down every street, tearing her way through cities and even stopping some forms of transport in the worst effected area (Scotland). I find it amazing as Met Office has issues a "red alert" for Scotland. I would not like to be living there right at this moment in time, with many people trending on twitter #hurriancebagpipes and other similar (not such nice names) for the weather.

What do we expect though? As a famous advert once said "we wait all year for the summer sun, only to cool down again once it arrives" I find it NEAR impossible to get a human being who is 100% happy, or isn't fonding of moaning. I myself can't last the day without a few remarks of a negative nature, whether it be a slow driver or maybe "whats happened to my diet coke?" (lame example maybe?)

Anyway as i was putting books away in my old playroom (which is now the study) I came upon a treasure trove of TeenyWeenie Families. Now i myself am PROUD that i collected all families and houses PAR ONE! (that makes me a bit sad in my competitive nature) and I have provided a wee linkage below incase I'm the only girl aware of such toy delights (they stopped producing the families in 1997) Gee now i feel old.

I mainly wanted to post to say I might hate the new me in the sense of getting angry easily and what not, but most of the time I am quite happy with my life. So I wanted to make that clear: I am happy, its jus the adjusting period of my donor system and how i feel about myself after all these years of fighting the big C.

Linkages: Teeny Weeny Families (Ebay link) 
Just want to say that the link i provided is for ebay BUT it is because i cant find the orginal teeny weeny website (although you can just google that product but ebay is jus another verison of lookin at the families etc)

MEOOOWWW!

Vanished?

I have finished semester one (uni) and yesterday I went to get my results for my donor test at the hospital. I should have been happy, hell i should have been overjoyed with everything but when she said that it was 100% donor still, I just smiled and nodded. I want to be happy! I want to be like "wooo hoooo lets tell everyone" but instead no one asked par a selective three people and even at that I was jus like "erm yeh it was okay".....

I am still in that phase of anger at the world around me, everyone seems to go around being horrible to people and taking things for granted but most of the time they dont realise how lucky they are. Granted that sounds soooo cheesy, but its true! People are becoming more "erm im not helping you with anything" in their life, lost in their own vanity. So you have to ask the question will it happen that if you or anyone else vanished for the day, would the rest of your peers or supposed "friends" notice? They might notice a couple of days after (say u took urself off to a wee cottage for the weekend) but on that ACTUAL day... would anyone notice? Sad to say I am beginning to think that no one would notice if i was to vanish for the day.

I have found I have no energy left for horrible people in my life, why say "awk they didnt mean it".... in a situation when they are pushed to their limits and you see their other side, it means that they arent the person you thought they were. I am beginning recently to see this more and more. People are actually like animals, wanting opportunities and some will actually do anything to get to the front of the queue. Fed up with it all.

I wish people would realise how their words effect others.... but sadly no one goes by the motto "treat others how u want to be treated"....

Other than that my antirejection drugs are being decreased at night (used to take 100mg in morning and 100mg at night, but now 100mg in morning and 75mg at night) I am also down to 15mg of steroids interval days. I think what I am mostly struggling with is the concept that I miss the old me, the one who doesnt seem to be angry most of the time and can make a joke. I find that the more i carry on "getting up and maybe the day will be better" the more I am beginning to get used to showing my "happy" fake smile and saying "im fine".... im not fine. im pissed off with the world. with people. with the fact that after four years of stealing my life it has now stole my personality. I dont like the new me. I hate the new me.

Come and join me for tea?

Children in Need Cupcakes

For children in need this year the UUJ Marketing Society decided to raise money by holding a bake sale. I am not on the team itself but I thought I could lend my baking skills and bake some vanilla buttercream cupcakes. I also did a batch of six nutella cupcakes but I dont have the photo of it on my computer (taken on my mobilearotto)

The team raised £800 (over that I think) which I think is a massive achievement for such a small university society, but I must admit if I didn't have a hospital appointment that morning (when the bake sale was happening) I would have went and bought one. The pictures of the bake sale table was filled with different cupcakes, and some of them look very yummy!

Below is birthday cupcakes. This time I got lemon essence for the main sponge but topped the cupcakes themselves with vanilla buttercream. The photo is just to show off the mini boxes (which holds four cupcakes each) I am hoping to get the same product/box but a christmas themed version for a couple of people this christmas for presents (no im not a skint person!) I got the boxes (both photos) from Lakelands (love that place!)

In other news, I am still a boring little person. I haven't done much to be honest other than see my friends and what not. Still breathing, still living. Cant wait for Christmas.

Birthday Cupcakes for special ladies

I would also like to say I would change my grammar on these last two posts but I am very tired tonight and have university in the morning. So for the time being sorry for grammar. I shall change it when i have time.

And as the rain slams againist the window I bid thee a good night.
x

"Its like forgetting the words to your favourite song"

I have neglected you bloggy *pats bloggy head*, but for good reasons. I have been completely knackered recently along with being super duper busy finishing university work. No! Don't give me those crying eyes bloggy!

I recently got Regina's album, hence my title to this specific blog post. I highly recommend her songs (the way to figure this out is by typing into YouTube: Regina spektor SAMSON)

If you like that song (Samson) then you should then listen to her other songs. The specific song that I love at the moment is called: "Eet" anyway I am in love with her. If you listen to that song in particularly its really how I feel.

The idea that you suddenly cant remember what it was like to be you. Yes, I realise I sound silly and that indeed I am still ME, but truly carefree without this huge burden all the time.

That looming sense of "what if"... especially at the moment with my chest being sore. I suppose I just seem to be living in some sort of fear at the minute. I'm getting a bit tired of constantly walking through life either doped up on medications for my GVH or itching my skin because i feel like someone is tickling me.

I don't want to be this person at the minute, who has to have a skin bath, be careful of taking of my make up in case my eyebrow hair just falls out or the fact that i have to try to drag energy from some sort of source that i didn't know i had.

Anyway, that rant wasn't to make you feel bad for moaning at me bloggy for not paying you attention. I just needed to put that out there, even though its my personal blog. I feel sometimes that people seem to (even though clearly before i was ill i just took life for granted) cheat life and drink/take drugs constantly and i want to scream "CANT YOU SEE YOU HAVE A PERFECT WORKING BODY? U ARE RUINING IT" but then anyone could do that (if they have a different medical condition)

I wanted to upload some photos of my recent baking but I shall do it in another post.....

See u in a second.x

Are you content?

You ever dream of that feeling after a long day of work? Or that mad traffic that you had to sit through whilst gripping the steerwheeling whilst ANOTHER lane dogder skips infront of you within one second of the traffic moving?

I love that feeling of sinking into your new bed that feels like a cloud. Or that moment when you finally sit down to peace and quiet and take that first sip of your favourite hot drink, diet coke or even something a bit more adult like.

Maybe for you its that quiet moment before bed each night when you think "what was todays good points" For me its deffo the feeling of being in bed whilst being hugged not only by your duvet but by a teddy, boyfriend/girlfriend or even just your close friend (this is more acceptable if you are a lady)

I always think everyone has a "sneaky" secret of what they love to do. For me it might be:

• sticking my finger in the bowl of cake mix and realising no one seen me. 
• Or that moment when your dog looks at you with those puppy dog eyes and you quickly fire him a piece of "human food". 
• I don't really believe my dog is a dog though, he doesn't act like it, especially when i serve him his slice of toast buttered and halfed (easier to eat?) 
• Or that I sometimes share my biscuits with him.
• Or the fact that for a month I had a spare packet of biscuits (human food once again) by my bed side and they were ONLY for my dog.

So I ask you... what is your version of "pure happiness" or closest way of getting from stressed to destressed?

My lap as a pillow maybe Charlie?

Need suggestions?  I recommend a duvet day, loads of catch up programmes and of course something with animals in it, for example Frozen Planet on BBC. How I love that programme.

Now remember, just because its Winter and it might be freezing where you live, and you might not have that much money because of this recession, I DARE YOU... yes YOU to have ONE positive day.... one day were you are GRATEFUL.


Toodles for now my dearest.

ps I found a great site (not sure if i posted about this and if im repeating my self: then sorry)

Look up "the pink whisk" on google (Ruth from Great British Bake Off S.2 developed it- some great recipes)

Anyone out there?

Mix

It seems once again I have been away from my blog for a period of time. University in second year cries for more attention than I first thought it might or would. So I am going to show you my love in the form of... cake photos! I have made my Grandas birthday cake for his 84th birthday and decided to upload various stages (in photo format) to let you all drool over?

So my granda loves pigeons as he races them in competition (not those street pigeons but professional flying pigeons) anyway I wanted to include that theme in the cake. I also wanted to test my baking skills and make either a four or three layer cake with jam and buttercream between each layer. In the end I opted for three layers.

Finished cake mix

To begin with I had to think of the shape I wanted the cake to be in. I was thinkin more square to allow for the icing to fall and be moulded onto the cake easier in comparison to a circle style cake. I also have never really made a square celebration cake. I then thought about the idea of piping styles and cake mixture. I wanted a cake mixture I had successfully used in the past (therefore I knew the end result tasted fine) but I had to change the quantities successfully in order to make the mixture equal for two square tins. In the photo opposite is the simple unwhisken sponge mix of eggs,flour,baking powder and sugar.

Layering stage

Then I whisked the mix and added my soften butter to make the end raw mixture look like this... So off it went into the oven (I forgot to take a photo of that stage...opps) then once it had cooled I layer it with jam then buttercream (they sorted of rippled on their own without me wanting them to, but sure it all goes in and tastes the same?)
And TA DAAAAA the finished cake I made bigger so you could see it. I hope he likes it. Since my granny passed away I always feel this weird heart pain when I look at him, knowing he just misses my granny so much. True love is hard to come by!!!

Cold nights and crisp mornings....

Can you feel that in the air? The sudden darkness that falls, something that you don't even notice but suddenly you find yourself on auto pilot turning on your headlights and knocking up the heating a few numbers. Autumn is a forgetten season, people jump straight to Winter. In this instance (were I live anyway) it is clear to see that Autumn (par from the wind) has been misplaced and we have started the dreaded winter survival mode.

Ohhh new shoes?

Whilst I type this, the wind outside batters at my window and makes that ghoulish howling noise. Normally I love this weather, you are tucked up inside your house with diet coke (or your favourite drink) and a good book, television show etc. But I am beginning to wonder that if this is the weather NOW, what will it be like in DECEMBER?

I decided also to do some shopping online today and bought these PRETTYFUL shoes! they will make me jus under six foot ONCE i have learnt the art of walking in them. Look at them *stares at shoes*

Anyway I am going to team them up with Motel Rocks high waisted shorts I found in the sale (black cotton material) and a scallop like top from Topshop. Hopefullyyy it will work out. I also got this awweessomeee top that is grey but has a skelton outline on it, super rocky I thought. Sorry its a bit blurry (the website image went a bit weird)

Par from the usual spend spend spend of la moneyyyy, I have been doing nothing but university work and baking (uploaded a photo of my cheesecake on my twitter account: WonderPLand)

I finally got my laptop sorted with new windows etc on it. So thank you sony and the lovely man that helped me :D (the guy who worked in the sony shop) At least someone is still nice in this world.

Toodlless for nowwwww

x

Don't wear the big boots if you cant fill them

From my knowledge in my current marketing degree I have learnt that its essential for any company in any market to remember one thing about consumers: Quality service has to be carried through even after the exchange process.

Microsoft is now a company that I as a consumer would deem as using their "big boots" approach ie large market control over word programme to overlook the simple support system.

From my personal story I want to highlight that just because a company owes a lot of market share doesnt give them the right to use it to their advantage in order to "forget" about after care, or even simple thinking/strategies.

I purchased a unique one off product key for Home and Student 2010 office. I know that you can get a CD Rom but this is microsoft's new way to install office IF your computer is preloaded with a trail of the office system.

So my sony laptop, lets call it A... it froze then died (never my fault) but alas i used the office and installed it on A. Then Sony said they would replace it free of charge. I said "great!" then they said "just ring microsoft and explain what happened, they should realise you can reactivate it from their end because technically you bought something that was never consumed on the laptop" .... Cue a phonecall of anger.

Summarise Microsoft "support" which by the way is the lowest standard I have ever seen. The first issue was their phone numbers and support layout on their website is TOO complex. Have one number. Simple. You have to realise not everyone (even though I know computers) is a computer sav. The second issue was the call support. "I can give you support for the A laptop... but i cannot reactivate nor give u free support for computer B" (im shortening this because it does get rather confusing).... So off on a rage I went. Saying that you would think that big companies such as M, Sony, Dell etc etc would all get together and put a strategy in place to make sure there are certain solutions to issues that clearly happen... ie said issue of laptop breaking on me after i put the office programme on the computer. The man's reply: sorry for your problem and please call again if you need any more help. I was raging to say the least.

In summary: Sony computer broke... Sony said thats grand I will get a replacement... Microsoft said no we dont have a strategy in place for computers that break after our programme was downloaded and never used by the consumer.... RESULT? I have to fork out more money for ANOTHER disc/product key WHEN i didnt even get to use the first product key.

Big boots Microsoft... but do you have the ability to fill them successful? I think by the fact that you dont even have a clear address for a complimant department tells me you have no care in the world for after care support for your customers. IF i had a range of product choices AND didnt rely on the fact that all computers use your programme I WOULD NOT be buying another one. Maybe you should realise that if you want to be successful in the long run, you shouldnt just rely on the fact that people HAVE to buy your products, in order to create compatable office documents that are used in every office worldwide. MAYBE you should look at the longer bigger picture for company success. I doubt from my quick research that many of your customers WOULD be repeat purchasers if they had another product choice other than your office programme.

So yes. If I could I would BOYCOTT microsoft but they know, and I know that is not possible because of their large success with computer programming. I don't even want another product key/CD Rom because I am that angry.

All things yummy...and a dog

 I have previous to this post uploaded a photo of my crunchie cheesecake but this one is for my boyfriends 20th birthday, which is tommorrow. His mum is already getting him a normal birthday cake and he has yet to try my cheesecake, so alas I made him one! I always find difficulty with the biscuit base turning solid and not jus crumbling when you cut into the cheesecake. I think I did better this time. I used 41/2 oz of stork with 400g digestive biscuits. And turned the fridge extra cold so that it could set a bit easier. I just don't get a website that gives me the right ingredient ratio for biscuit to melted butter. Well enough for it not to crumble when i want to cut slicearoooss. The other photograph is of my first ever attempt of proper chocolate cupcakes. These have a nutella piped middle, so that when you mircowave/warm them up the nutella provides a "ooze" like centre. I was really pleased with these because I have never piped any ingredients straight into a cupcake or any form of cooked cake mixture BUT i was chuffed at how these turned out. On the top is a simple vanilla buttercream that I then added Bournville powder to... I used my piping kit that I got from Lakelands. Have to say I am chuffed at this photo, because I didnt half spend my entire day on them making sure I didnt get them wrong. I think though in future, deffo more buttercream mixture for the top, I found that some buns had to be left uncovered because I ran out of mixture. Sad times.

And of course the last photo is of my charlie warlie dog. He is sleeping in this photo but due to my phonearoooo flash it looks like he is just havin a afternoon nap. He should really get a bigger bed but I dont think he would be a happy chappy if we got rid of his bed. I don't want to tell you how huffy he gets if you buy him a human tesco duvet for him to lie on. Like we are doing him a diservice by keeping his bed from going mucky/mouldy especially in winter when the rain and bad weather makes him sit in bed for hours being a grumpy old man because he never wanted to go for a walk in the first place. Sour bake much?

Par from that I have been still working away in uni but i cant wait for Halloween, i am getting so excited. I miss being young though, it feels more special when you are young and indeed you don't feel as weird dressing up.

Toodles for now.x

This is a mans world...

But it deffo isn't anything with a wommmmaannn *sings* ahh its so nice to be able to sit and relax in my comfy bed and listen to the rain, but even better, i got the flu jab and i dont feel ill. WOOP WOOP to the immune system. I wanna hug it but it doesnt like body contact. What? It speaks to me....sometimes.

My nutella cupcakes (i posted a photo on my twitter) went down a treeatttt and its my boyfriend burfday soon so Im thinking of making him a crunchie cheesecake, which people seem to love. Hopefully he will like it.

Nothing much else has been happening. I have been bogged under with uni assignments. I also picked the colour for my room that I will be moving into in Feb... its called "beeswax" by Dulux. Sooo nice, like a carmel light creme colour. Yummyyyyy!

In the mean time feast your eyes on this The_Great_British_Bake_Off_Series_2_Masterclass/

YUMMYYY

x

Guess who got twitter?

Alas facebook has become dull... like a cloudy day without a hope of getting anything productive done. So i joined twitter. YES YES! i know "yay! we can hear her awesome tales of her days at uni and seeing people"... but then again apparently there are these celeb like people who use twitter also and how is a girl meant to 100% stalk people without twitter?

Par from that I had the sad realisation that I lost six years worth of photos because I deleted them from my HP computer, but then I handed my Sony computer in to get fixed... alas the photos are gone for ever unless the nice salesman keeps his word and does a transfer of my files. BOOO! (weeps)

I am finally on week 3 of uni and I am knackered so I'm making this a short blog post to update you on my twitter name. Don't hope for too much wisdom, one girl can only think of so much to say. Who knows i might become so bored that i retreat into my magical imaginary world.

Twitter name: WonderPLand

Gooddbyyeee

Are fairytales a thing of the past?

I know we live in a society were genders have to have things equal but do you actually think that because of the emphasis of how equal everyone has to be, there is no real fairytale stories of how you met your current boyfriend? Other half?

In the decades before I was born, there was courting then asking for your hand AND only then you would kiss the man on the cheek and dash off into the night. But now, its all these mini skirts and spilling out into the night to share taxi's home.

I want to be born in the decade where women stood outside their homes and pretended to wash the doorstep but gossiped about "number five having their lights on all night, are they made of money?"

But alas that decade has went and gone so I decided the best way to try to be old fashioned was to make NUTELLA CUPCAKES. what? that is sort of keeping in trend with the old fashioned ways. I have a jar of unopened nutella and i finally found a lovely recipe for cupcakes that result in fluffyyy chocolately buns, fingers crossed it will work out well.

Its starting to get so cold where I live, I feel like buying one of those FAUX fur coats because they look like little nests- walking nests (i shall name thee!)

I have to leave you lot now because I need a early night but as always I have searched the internet for a wee video and this one shows you what I am like with my food.... if i was a cat. Speaking of cats, i soooo want a kitten, terrible sad!

"Compare where you are to where you wanna be and you'll get no where"

I got a couple of songs from Sara Bareilles and one of her songs called "uncharted" has the followings lyrics in my title post.

I love her songs.... the lyrics always have the ability (similar to Taylor swift) to relate differently to each person who listens to them.

Halloween is deffoooo around the corner. I don't know if its just me, but I think the air (yes air!) smells differently round Halloween because people start to light their fires and then people let off fireworks, which have this smell... maybe im just weird?

Its too cold! I can't even believe that it suddenly got so cold overnight, I seem to be very attached to my hoody at the moment, not very attractive but it sure does keep me warm! I think the hot chocolate might have to come out again in my lovely wee Cath Kidston mug. I can't wait for winter time to come along, but shush! pretend I didn't say that, people seem to be very angry when someone mentions winter. What could be better? fires, warm drinks, scarfs, hats and snow fights! ah blissss. that whole red nose and rosy cheeks. Simple pleasures in life.

I had my three year anniversary with my boyfriend on the 5th/6th. Got a wee card, Metoyou bear with a heart and a huge bunch of flowers (lilies,roses etc) Was good fun.

Maybe I will get a oneisie (if that is even how they are spelt) tommorrow, to you know... replace the hoody. What? I am cutting back on my spending. My lovely mummy is getting me it.

Well nightarooo folk a dolks.

PS pleasseee for the fun of it: listen to this, i bought it because it made me smile.

Its not all about the soap...

I am a fan of various dramas or "soaps" as people like to call them. One in particular at the moment is Emmerdale.

For all those people missing out on the awesomeness that is emmerdale, I wanted to fill you in on one particular storyline. Now before you exit your screen, it is a interesting storyline. A girl in emmerdale, which I am not too sure of her age has just started acting a storyline that invovles her...having a bonemarrow transplant. I thought it was a excellent storyline, in the sense that not many people know any real information about this type of transplant. Yes they get kidney transplants, understand the process of liver transplants but when you say bone marrow transplant... well lets just say some people have responded in a very strange way:
"Do you have to wait until the person dies to get their bone?"...."no" would be my perplexed answer.

So if you are interested in following this storyline then you should start watching Emmerdale.

I am also gutted (even though I dont like Apple products as a consumer) that Steve Jobs lost his battle with cancer at the age of 56 on Wednesday. He showed great determination and strength throughout being told he was ill and accepted the concept that he wasnt going to win that particular fight in life.

A great quote which he said in a speech, once he found out he wasnt going to be able to treat it was this:

"Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart."

 

If that isnt a reminder to be grateful of life, then I don't know what is. Within hours of his passing, Apples shares drop 1% which only adds to the big question "Will Tim Cook be able to pull it off?" and since his disappointing release of the iphone 4s (not the iphone 5 like everyone hoped) shares dropped more. Steve Jobs was Apple. He will always continue to be the person that created such great technology back in the beginning with his apple mac's and his new thoughts on the world of technology.apples-tim-cook-continue-steve-jobs-work

I personally believe that Samsung and Apple in the future will be the main rivals of each other, especially with the current court arguments and the recent news that Samsung is taking Apple to court (normally its the other way round)

So yes.... my post summary is this: 

 

Life is ever changing, too fast for some, too slow for others, but if you take it for granted.... well you will end up with nothing.

Toodles for now.

Trying out a new programme?

 

I have decided that since I got my new Sony lappy to try out “windows live writer” which syncs with your blog (depending if the two systems are compatible) and allows you to create similar blogs without using the internet (par from publishing)

I have no idea what this specific post will turn out, but I might edit the information in it IF I need to go online to fix it. Sort of like a mini review.

Sadly my fix of the Murray trail on SkyNews is over for the weekend, so I have decided to use the time wisely, do more university work and read some business journals. I decided to read some recommend reading from my module handbook for Marketing Management. A specific article from Harvard Business Journal was very interesting to read. It talked about the idea that companies have six similar characteristics in obtaining consumers and creating a environment where the consumer not only becomes satisfied but returns to shop at the same business again (repeat purchasing, customer loyalty)

Well lets see if this works. How odd, i miss my blogger interface… *clicks publish*

Great Pumpkin Shortage? It can't be true. Can it?

Even though I do not live in USA I am shocked to realise that the underrated pumpkin is is short supply . the-great-pumpkin-shortage-limits-supply-in-northeast

I know that I am now seen as a "adult" in society but surely you can't blame me for loving the whole pumpkin carving and halloween outfit. Buying a single pumpkin for double their usual price? Would you? I probably would if it was the type of pumpkins American people get, our pumpkins are usually small and not as grand.

In other environmenty news I can't believe there is another hurricane for America already. The hurricane could become a threat for the island at the weekend although it has only just made it into cateorgy one storm with winds of 75mps. Click this link for the full story of the hurricane: Fourth Hurricane

Toodless for now

What What?

I know that most people are not that fussed with the trial itself, and I don't even have a actually opinion on it but I find the actual live coverage of such a trial.... so interesting. I have obviously never watched or been part of a court trial so I suppose curiousity is getting the better of me, but its similar to watching a soap (even though that might be a bad example)

I have also started back to uni. If someone said to me five months ago that I would be in university doing my second year of my degree I would go "pff" and laugh. I am just happy in general that I get to go back to university and gain some sort of normal life style back, even though I can't join in on social outings (although I am more suited to living the "sitting in" life now)

I haven't been doing much else other than getting organised for university. I am looking forward to my three year anniverarsy with my boyfriend because it means a nice meal out, which we haven't done in a while.

I sadly think that Belfast have lost out on the sunny weather today as it has been raining for most of the afternoon. Although I secretly wouldn't mind cold weather to come along, as i love snuggling down and wearing scarfs, mittens and winter coats.

In other news Rihanna has been visiting Belfast and did a new video in Bangor. I like her music, but I do not worship celebrities or really follow any specific celebrities as they are just normal people, no different to me or you. Anyway everyone went mad over her and was following her whilst she was filming the music video.

Sorry for the boring writing but sky news live coverage is taking all my attention today on the trial. At the minute a company spokesperson for medical equipment is being asked questions. This is probably the major "people" evidence to show Dr Murray could be done for neglect as he should not have been using this type of equipment for long term mointoring of MJ.

Toodles for now, hopefully next time I blog I will have my new Vaio lappy set up.
x

Social Sites

For as long as I can remember people have been part of some sort of social site whether it be Bebo (back in the old days) or Facebook, even Google has taken to entering the frenzy competitive world of social networking sites with their take on it called "Google+"

Lately though, behind closed doors most owners of networking sites have been plotting, planning, developing and slowly releasing to the internet world their new versions and updated programmes of their services.

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Facebook has been in the news twice this week alone and they havent even really begun to churn out their new changes to a less than pleased audience. Yes the service is free, yes we are not obliged to use Facebook and someone was quoted saying "the amount of users that use facebook means its hard that everyone is happy with new decisions" But is facebook taking it too far? Why change a good thing?

They have a long list of bad decisions from facebook chat that reguarly stops working, to a new mini news feed within the orginal newsfeed. That's not the only thing that Facebook change, they constantly update their security settings, without notifying people. In my opinion this is the worst thing about having a account on facebook, I have to check my security settings every week incase they have updated and therefore changed my personal customized settings to allow high privacy on my account.

I am not a user of Google+ so I cannot comment on their site nor how it works but I hope soon that Facebook will eventually stop changing their layout and realise that most people, since we are mammals DON'T like change.

Can you tell I am annoyed by the new layout? Probably since it seems I victimised Facebook alone, but I am not a user of any other networking site.

Goodbye, from a irritated user

Money Madness

Someone should stop me. Get me a huge sign that alerts everyone that I have a card that has money on it and that I am willing to use it without properly thinking. Sirens should sound when I enter a shop because it's like a drug. I go into this trance like state and shopping makes me feel this high that I only seem to experience when I am shopping. It does worry me.

I actually don't even look at prices, THAT in itself speaks volumes. If I like it, especially clothes I will pick it up, try it on (sometimes I dont even do that) and then go to the till if I am a happy chappy. So I have started a new tact THINK BEFORE YOU BUY. So far it is sort of working. Sort of being the emphasised word.

Lately I have been good and only spent money on a new hair cut, which was neccessary because my hair has been growing for 5 months without me touching it. Then I got Garnier BB cream which is getting greattttt ratings for £8 in Boots. I then had to get hair spray (travel size before u ask!) which was a essential because no one has hair spray in my house. I did do well in PC world though. I could have got a new laptop but I said "no no i will go home and think about it" I am still unsure about a new laptop but its more of a santa christmas present but there is a sale at the moment.

Annyyyway I am getting better, I merely look now and think "no no you don't REALLYY need it" and quickly exit the shop before my brain can do this weird one to one conversation that goes like this:

"Oh look at that tshirt.... look for our size"
"Maybe we dont need it tho"
"Of course we need it... look our size is there. get it"
"No no i think we shudnt do that. we have a similar one at home"
"Similar! not the same"
"No i disagree"
"Ignore... go on you would look nice in that Jane"
"Yess i would wouldnt i?"

That my friend is where my madness comes from. I might become one of those cat ladies who have thousands of cats and have photos with me throwing money in the air or something. Goodness I hope not!

Anyway it is worrying that my brain is capable of having that sort of conversation without me being able to do much about it (I kid....)

I am currently still loving life, who wouldn't? I don't see anything wrong with anything in my life and to be honest I am pretty grateful at the current state of it.

I can't wait until the 5th of October though. I am celebrating my three years with my boyfriend. He doesnt get the hint when i leave him in the supermarket with the trolley and no way of getting home, but alas he has stuck around (i joke again!) I seriously can't wait we are going to this hotel and im super duper excited *claps like a seal* There is the link below and its the victorian type of room not the more modern one. I shall take photos and pretend I actually own the suite. Ekkk! Merchant Deluxe Suite Choices

I don't think I have much else to tell you, for as i said before I dont do much par from friends, uni and seeing my boyfriend and obviously my family.

Oh i have big news for my friend Emma. She has took the hugeeee step of going to Spain to do her teaching for a year. Sooo brave, I'm such a home bird but I am proud of her! Maybe she will never read this, who knows.


..... *picks up her fallen £100 notes off the floor and recounts them*

I joke!

Night.x

Ze Apologies

Ah my little friend, I have neglected you badly this past while but fear not *stands tall* I have returned. Somewhat different, *strikes a pose* but alas you are more interested in hearing my recent stories, like a A list celeb that I am.

I am afraid I don't bring much gossip. I know i know, boring Jane. It is irritating to be this boring. Firstly I want to say that I am back at uni for my second year. I am super organised like always, I got my stationery today (my inner...actually just general geek like self loves stationery) and then I went and got my FIRST HAIR CUT since my hair has started to grow back.

Ah so exciting. I got it tapered around my ears and all the same length due to it needing to grow for a while at the same pace. I have decided to keep my denial about my curly hair at the back of my head and got that cut into, i love having a tapered back and short pixie like hair. Who wouldn't? Its fab for beating late mornings.

I am also down to FOUR steroids every other day, which i am very grateful for. My skin doesn't itch but I think that is due to me having E45 Oil baths every day. I can't praise this product enough, it is actually my life saver!!!  I popped a wee link about the product below because its a must have product even for skin that you can't be bothered moisturing.
More info on E45 Bath Oil

I am getting supppppeerrr dupppeerr excited about Halloween, you can feel it in the air now, that crisp dark evening when you can sense people lighting their fires and snuggling down to get some warmth. I have even started having a nightly hot chocolate, I am that cool.

I got a new phone, which I have blogger on but its awfully difficult to type on. Its the samsung Galaxy S2, but alas I shall continue to try to use the touch screen - its more the texting that it seems to take a fit with, since I tend to type fast.

Right time for my second post on my lastest buys and maybe other news that my little brain might have forgot. As the image said, I did have a cookie for you... but i ate it. Opps *wipes crumb from whiskers*

A quick post

hey blog i have abandoned you again and currrently updating via phone but ill b on tommorrow for a update. in the mean time do you like my new headphones?

meeeee.

It's getting cold

Some sad news before good news: Today my hamster, Oreo died. She had another stroke so I sat with her and cuddled her until she passed away. She wasn't in much pain, she even snuggled into my arm and closed her eyes to go a sleep. Once she had passed away I put her in a pink box, which i secured with ribbon and buried her in my back garden. I do miss her, keep going in to chat to her and realising she is gone. She will be my last hamster, best and last.

Brrr! I seem to be the only one that is cold these days. thank goodness for me buying that over size scarf in River Island, both soft and warm. I swear I dont want to go to my winter wonderland wardrobe but i dont think i have much choice now.

Im also trying not to itch my eyebrows because my skin is itchy, as once again they seem to be hanging on for dear life. I cant believe its been four days since I lasted posted. Here is a round up of the events of my life (that i havent already mentioned)

- Slide robe man came out to measure my new wardrobe for when i move out (obvs the wardrobe will be in my new house)

- I passed my uni exams with flying colours. No need to re-sit them. I got 50 in accounting (only needed 40) and 71 overall in FOM. I start back to uni next week

- My bio chemistry tests are at their best after a check up clinic appointment today at the hospital

- I was able to get my car fixed by kwikfit after the wheel bearing severly needed fixed. Felt like a independent woman.

- Eventually caught up on all the sleep i haven't been getting and feel loads better for it.

I think that is all, nothing too exciting has been happening in my life but I don't want to neglect my blog by not posting, hopefully I'm not boring you. Can't wait until tommorrow, going to have a lazy day since i have had two different hospital appointments this week alone which means early mornings... early mornings are not good!

Night my bloggy woggy.x

A rare entire post for GVH education

I found this amazing video on youtube from a girls experience of her brother having cancer and going through chemo and GVH. she reads her diary extract about what it was like for her brother getting chemo and sadly he got extreme GVH and didn't survive.

I wanted to post this video for the simple reason that it is very hard sometimes for people to talk about their experience of going through getting chemo, and I found this girl seemed to describe his chemo experience the way I used to feel. The diary reading comes at 3.51 in the video (before that is her describing GVH, but its a bit depressing because his was such a extreme form- in all his organs)

 

I sometimes forget that my brain had this ability to somehow blank out parts of my transplant so it now just remains a haze to me, parts were I know I feel like I was so sick from treatment that I would rather someone just kill me, and then other parts which my parents and family remember but I seem to forget. I suppose in a way its how people cope (the forgetting/haze part)

It's not a easy journey, but I think its a journey worth taking. A bit like skydiving or jumping off that massive cliff into the brillant blue sea on holiday, scary but somehow your body jumps and before you know it... you have done it.

I wouldn't change it for the world. What happens is meant to happen. I normally don't dedicate a whole post anymore to my health but I thought this girl deserved to be posted because for someone that lost their brother, she holds it together very well.

Something that I want.....

This song is from the hit movie "Tangled" and it makes me happy when I hear it, therefore you should hit PLAYYYY and listen to it whilst i tell you my great... no no... AWESOME SAUCE news.

I got told EVENTUALLY after chasing down my transplant co-ordinator (well my mum did the chasing) about my donor cell blood test. This shows how much donor vs my cells are in my body. So at this stage the hospital is looking for around 60-70% of the donor cells vs obviously 40% or below of my cells.

My result was.... ONE HUNDRED PERCENTTTTT *does a bouncy dance* which means that my cells are no longer there to teach the new cells bad habits ie that cancer cells are friendly, when in fact they are enemmmiesss *dramatic voice*

My other happy news is that I found out the sex of the donor. Ever since I got the transplant I had this image of a business woman from America taking time out to come over with her mini suitcase dragging behind her whilst she clip clopped her way through St James hospital BUT I got told yesterday that it was a male donor, which is even better because if my cells ever do come back they can instantly tell the difference between male and female cells.... woop woop like chicken soup!

I haven't blogged in a couple of days so I have tons of interesting news, like the fact that a tropical storm (im mega into weather incase you missed my other posts about weather related stories) is coming to UK, I know that hurricanes can change within hours never mind days and probably by the time it gets to UK it will only feel like a stormy/windy day but still, Im looking forward to it. I have never once seen a hurricane from American make it's way over towards us, so its superrrr duper exciting for me. Hurricane-Katia-heads-for-the-UK.

Well that's all for now folkyssss. Toodle pip and what not.
x

Dont get your star studded bangle in a twist cus you jealous!

My title of my blog is from a brillant online vblogger called Kandee Johnson. I follow her all the time (not actual following, just watch her videos) and they are AWEESSOMEEE. She is always sooo happy, which in turn makes you happy and her make up tips are KICK ASS! They are also free, lol, so why not give her a wee watch? Im sure you wont be disappointed. The video I linked is an idea I want to do for Halloween, but I think it will stay a idea because my skin will probably go all mad on me for putting this type of make up on and then fire out some lovely GVH skin rash.

The E45 oil wash actually meant i didn't need to sit in the bath this morning, as i usually wake up and start the unbearable itching and have to climb into the bath ASAP to allow my skin to calm down.

Ahhh the joys of listening to rain outside. I adore rain. I only wish I had my bf to cuddle. I  miss him, but don't tell him that. He might get a complex or something :P

I also can't wait to go back to uni which is starting back this month, I shall have to get my motivation brain working so that I can go shopping for more folders (i like each module to have a specific folder and seperate notepad with stickers/labels etc) I am a total geek BUT i love it, and it means Im super organised and it doesn't take me a age to find everything when i need to search for a specific note from a specific week. WOAHHH a lot of specific's there. 

I am a bit worried though about going back because I don't have much confidence since the majority of time I spend alone or with mates/bf, therefore Im not really in a open social setting and since I am a bit OCD about my skin ie "people can see" i do get a bit wary about what people think. I am also worried about energy levels or catching something eg a cold. Oh well we have to take big steps in life.

Other than that I don't really have any more news to tell you. I'm just super excited about getting back to my old life because i miss it

SO IF YOU ARE MOANING ABOUT YOU'RE "BORING" LIFE .... ER DON'T! :D BE HAPPYYYY!

Mucho Love, Janeyyy

Cows, Chickens and Cashhh!

I couldnt get all the photos and text in so i decided to do seperate posts showing all my fotos BUT then alas i forgot a chicken photo. The brown chickens were rescued from a battery farm and the black chickens/hen were bought from a local farmer. They just sort of ran over any time you were near them. The photo below is of their pretty green hen house which i thought was both vintagey and cool looking. Obviously I couldn't get too close or zoom in because my camera is not one of those hi-tech ones that art students or keen photographers use but I still like the wee photo. The chickens had names such as Agnes and Beatrice, which I found funny.

The estate called Belle Isle also has cows, which I included photos of. Cows are my favourite farm yard animal, I don't know why but they just are. Their facial expressions and general cow like apperance make me go all high pitched and excited. I love getting close to them, which is a slow process as I find most of them are very shy and run off if you approach them too fast.

I bought loads of clothes but I just could not be bothered taking photos and showing them all, but there are mostly dresses, shorts, tights, a horse coat and a lovely winter pale pink scarf.

On a different note my skin has been driving me to INSANITY but my sister got me Tgel for my hair (the scalp is also sore...no part of my body isnt free of the whole dry skin) and then E45 oil for bath and E45 shower cream, BOTH these products DONT contain lanloin AND they were bliss on my body!!! Such relief....

That's all for now folkssss.x

My Snappiesss!

Bring on the trumpets

Bonsoir! Bonsoir! No no, im not greeting you from France, Im merely jazzing my entrance up to reveal the news....

a) my steroids have been decreased by 5mg for the next two weeks
b) my GVH shows my transplant has taken in my body
c) I am now on to TWO week reviews, instead of weekly (that was my best part)

Along with that exciting news, i got my SD card back from my friendy wendy so I shall be able to snap loads of glorious photos for my bloggy *pats blogs head* and also maybe take some photos of my baking, especially down in belle isle.

Apart from that nothing new has been happening with me. I'm reading "Crimson Petal and the White" which is a very heavy book in terms of weight, but I'm finding it far more interesting than "One Day" which has just been made into a film. If i was you I would go and see the film and not bother with the book, but then each to their own.

My next baking mission is either: Red Velvet Cupcakes OR Vanilla Cupcakes both with frosting of course! I want to make them look "purty" (Of Mice n Men quote)

I also got some new jumpers from New Look for my return to uni. They are long sleeved and very soft BUT they arent dear dear dear. You should ch-ch-check them out. I got four in total (yes yes! lunatic buying the same type of jumper in different designs) I also got high waisted jeans (yet to try them on to see if they fit/suit me) soooo I am all happy on my shopping front. Someone should actually stop me.

Now for tommorrows dinner I must settle a craving, a chip butty. Something that no man or woman can not satisfy! I of course shall try the old health approach of oven chips, as i dont own a fryer and i dont want to be a fatty boom boom and get a takeaway.... mmhh I can't wait. *nibbles on pretend image of chip butty*

I also wanted to finish off saying that recently Im super happy all the time par from the odd nightly...okay every night insomia that takes hold until 3am where upon i can finally get to sleep. I tend to have flashbacks at night, of treatment or getting stuff done to me by the hospital. Hopefully it shall stop.

I decided what i wanted to be for halloween this year as well..., but i shall keep you in suspense until nearer the time where I will REVEALLLL my idea to the world *evil laugh*

Goodnight folks! tuck in tight, the weather is turning. Ekkk! cant wait for snow!

The Step In Parental

Can't wait till my hair is like this again!

Phew! *lies down* what a hetic day! I was like wonder woman organising and what not. I started off by getting up to waken my dog, Charlie and give him his breakfast. Of course being Charlie he decided to let me know when he had finished his breakfast by trekking up to my room and breathing his dog breath into my face and looking at me like I was going to jump out of bed and take him to the park. That was not happening, instead he jumped up onto the bed and realised my boyfriend had stayed over. His face was one of question, as if he was asking "and why are you here?" but once again that didnt deter him from rubbing his nose into my boyfriends chest and getting comfy inbetween us. That didnt last long when I told him to go away....

Then I got ready and went to order my new sliderobes for my new house :D it was sooo exciting being able to choose a sliderobe from scratch. Gosh did I just say exciting? Anywhoooo I can't wait to do my new house up and get it all vintagey and girly (not too girly of course, more chic than girly)

Of course by this stage the dog needed more attention so we took him to the park where he tottered off content in his wee world. Of course I spilt his lunch and instead of being a good stand in parent I just let him eat it off the kitchen floor, which to be honest he seemed fine with. I can tell he is secretly wondering when his real mum will return and bring his normal routine back to him, but I have enjoyed looking after him.

Khloe Ring

I also made my crunchy cheesecake for my cousin's 3rd birthday party tomorrow, but I can't wait until this Friday coming because I am going away to Belle Isle where I shall take loads of photos for my blog....

In other exciting news, it is now offically not warm anymore at night time. I find that two duvets for one small person (that being me) is ample enough to keep me warm. I can't wait for winter though.

Ohhh i was going to show you my haul as youtubers call it. I got this lovely playsuit and a ring from Boohoo.com, both of which I adore.

Swallow Playsuit
Bird Ring

Go check them out!

Ta Ta for noowwww