SUMMER TIME

Finally i have made it to the summer of 2010. Cancer? POW! Exams? BAM!

Alas, the sun has been shining loads and I decided to update my weird blog that no one reads, but still good to keep a sort of log for your self when you want to feel embarassed about yourself.

Woh slow down....

I am loving "Metro Station" at the moment, I dunno why, but it has started to become a song that i replay all the time, Kesley its called and the photo is one of the lyrics, which to be honest in a soppy and totally loved up way I LOVE, whoever wud swim the ocean for someone is either gotta be madly in love or just a tank! I am going to go for ... TANK!

Update time i feel... well on my bday post (which i re-read..anger issues much?) i was greeted by a ex who actually (wont go into detail) somewhat proved his love for me, in some sort of manner. I dont want a public blog to become the story of it, even tho many dont read this BUT in the end i took him back. Gasps? Shocked faces? Hopefully not. I was told that i was "mad" and "walked over" but sometimes u gotta see whether things can change.

Finally! Oh finally! finished exams! Can i get a woo woo? And also got a new hammie called Oreo, dont know if i have posted about her but she is sooo cute :D If i have posted about her then she is still going great, give her fur a wee clip yday cus of matts due to her love of sawdust :)

Anyway I am basically still driving (beep beep) booking my theory and having fun. Got a letter for a open day at my new uni WOO WOO so i can't wait for that. BUT! something annoyed me this week! THE BANK MACHINE ATE MY FECKING CARD! like why?! Oh and i got the shingles...

App my life is more funny than exciting in terms of this post. What have we learnt
- Jane took back her ex
- She got shingles from coming off her antiviral
- She doesnt have a bank card at the moment and wants to shop soo badly
- She went to get her retainers checked and pretended they fitted and had to nod along wif the densist whilst her retainers sat in her mouth due to them being too tight for her teeth.... eek much?
- Jane is lovin metro station and the clothes in miss selfridges I.MUST.HAVE.THEM.

"Its going to get harder and it going to feel tougher so let me say that i love you...." (kelsey)

Music Drowns The Anger Out?

*Breathe in and out Jane* Bastards! That is what men are. Well specific men, for i suppose there are nice men out there who realise a nice girl when they see one and dont feel the need to lie over time and hurt the girl's feelings.

But i feel they are a minority. The fact of the matter is that i prefer to be in anger ville than go to the next step that is sadness, because i am not willingly to allow my body to feel sadness towards the so called relationship i had.

As my blog say "life throws u shit and u deal with it" but come on life! Ur really trying to test how far i will carry that slogan with me. How much crap have i to deal with in a year? Are you going for a record? I need to revise for another exam.

Never ending joy of my life this weather, although i did go out and meet boys ;) I am a girl who needs to live her life after all.

Maybe if someone was to fund a holiday for me and my single pals I would brighten up this blog of mine, but until then i fear it might be filled with anger and exams, until my birthday.

Oh that is something good to write about. My birthday is 2mara.... no longer a teen but into adult world. I wonder whether its really that much of a difference. I really do doubt it....


Love from a somewhat angry but not sad Jane

"If we ever meet again I will have so much more to say"

Woh jus when i thought it was safe to be single, he comes back. crawling? Who knows, it was a msn conversation. A long one at that. He said that he would fight. But what is the definition of fighting? Getting a present and begging or actually showing you truly love them. This is what I think someone should do if they are going to fight for them


- Flowers every day of the week

- Texts messages every hour

- Poems/love letters

- Heart pourings

- Change of attitude and cockness

- Songs maybe about you

- Lists! i love lists. List of why they feel like that and why they want you back

- Appearing at your door at random times just to bring new books or food or a balloon

- Making a CD with the songs that remind them of you

Ohhh and so many more


I don't think someone unless it was in the movies could actually fight for things, but then again he said that he wants to, so why not let him.

In other news.... I am still doing exams and its killing me softly. Writing this in between a break in english before i go to a geog exam in about 45mins.

I mainly just wanted to get my feelings down in this blog hahaha....


Adios Jane

You have arrived at Singleton Town

Woh that was a long train ride. A year and 3 months to be precise and now its over. Over because the other half cheated on me. I dont want to get into it. I dont want to be the girl who attacks all these people because she is angry. I am angry, granted but one thing i learnt with being ill twice in my life is that (as my saying goes) throws crap at you all the time and sometimes you cant just sit and cry in the corner. Indeed i am not going to.



Why am i writing this you ask? Because this blog is about my experiences and I want to record it so that maybe one day i will look at it and think "u did the right thing. u proved to urself that u are strong and that u can deal with situations whilst having ur head held high up"



Sooo another chapter is opening for me. Who know's what it will bring. On the other topics... exam is approaching so i best hop on my train and go to the next village Exam Death Village.... haha.



Jane....

Woop De Doop....

Heyyyy. Okay so guess who has actually completed their entire course of English with time to spare..... ME! Ohhh yes baby! I have actually done it and not to sound pratish and boastful but i am very very proud of myself HAHA.


Another thing I decided to add in is a new WELL Jane. 2010 baby this is me. Hair finally grown to a length that I like and I am liking the new me (once again with short hair) I feel like i am a writer and I am adding my photo to show that, I wrote it lol, but alas i wanted to show off my new hair.



Tonight I am heading out with my mates Emma and Jessica to eat food but alas crazy jessica is on another new diet sooo she isnt eating. She amuses me too much for words. So me and emma are jus eating. How fun it shall be, for i know Jessica won't last and end up knicking some of our food.



I really wanted to come to share my joy of finishing all english in time. Now have to work on geography .... Now that is a problem



*nervous laugh*



Byyeeeeeee
*whisks off to her happy land*

L is for Learner

I love the song recently L.O.V.E and I know it's a old one, the one from the start of my lovely wee film Parent Trap but the title of this blog post is taken from the whole lyrics "L is for the way you look at me...." so i replaced it with "L is for Learner"

Today, I, Jane drove....wait for it.... into the city centre. Now that is a great great feat for me, roundabouts and traffic, lights, stopping and not killing anyone. I mean, I don't want to boast but i was rather chuffed with myself that i completed something that last night i was shitting myself about.

I drove through my city centre and although its not terribly big, it does have a lot of meeting traffic malark and things like that. I am just over the moon that I didn't


a) stall

b) kill someone

c) crash and kill instructor

Okay b) and c) where similar but i added c) for a slight effect to make you understand how much I was worrying about failing or making loads of mistakes.

I came home after and actually did revise.... for about six hours. Isn't that just too nerdy lol.

Recently I have been using this blog to update what is happening in my life but maybe I should make my opinion heard, like other blogs. The fact that I think that Peter Robinson and the affair is highly boring, the idea that a ex guard from USA can talk to the men he locked up without being harmed is highly intriguting and the remote possibility of snow is just going to annoy me more, along with my new feeling of panic every so often for no reason, or indeed no reason that I can pin point makes this blog maybe more interesting.

The Round Up at Nine

Thought i would come on and say I actually did revision from two till seven. That my friend, is very good for me. Also I do think i am getting somewhere with the war poetry but to be honest, I decided to finish for the night before my mind got too confused about who was writting what in my notes (poet wise)

I have finished my book tonight woop woop and might actually go and play some COD for a while, because you just cant get enough geekiness into my lifestyle as it is. Still want to disappear to a tropical land and forget about various things but I dont think you can run from things (although I wish the saying was "indeed u can run... run my friend and run fast and far")

Maybe i should change the sayings and make them work to my advantage. Oh well the "big freeze" or "big chill" in the news has ended and I thought I would tell you that at one stage it was about -9 to -10 degrees where I lived. The only animal that enjoyed the snow, was my dog and sadly I have not uploaded the photo of him covered in snow, but I think you can tell that you would indeed laugh at it.

Driving lesson tomorrow and I am actually crapping it big style as its in the city centre of where I live. Something about wanting to "meet traffic" To be honest I jus think my driving instructor enjoys seeing faces that are set in pure nervous wreck mode or indeed them screaming as they miss a pedestrian on the road.


Maybe my driving lessons could be like this advert I found. "She drinks. He drives. Together its the trip of a lifetime" I would be the one drinking and my instructor could drive. Hahah. No no i kid.

Watch out people, here I come.

Toot! Toot!

A past friend

I almost forgot to mention that a dear friend of mine has returned. No no, that doesnt sound right. She wasnt aboard or busy. We had a argument and then didnt speak for about three to four months (maybe i calcuted that wrong and made time past faster) but we are actually talking again.

How did it happen? Rather not go into that, as it will make me look like a bit of a lunatic. The point is that it did happen and now we are friends again, or at least texting and msning etc.

Pleased? Of course! She helped me out in that rough weekend patch there and i vaguely remember (drunken times) sticking up for her and screaming. Pity i couldnt actually do time travel and go to the club sober and calm like normal people.

Oh well as i said in my first post of this month, I am not drinking till my birthday and when I do, I shall not be getting drunk. I am fed up with the whole drinking to be drunk thing that people have going on. Whats so bad about some diet coke and cookies with pj's for the night? No no! i am not a OAP i am just uberly fed up with the club scene or indeed bar and drinkin scene.

Maybe a recluse is on the cards for me. Now i sound highly stressed and a bit weird.

Revision or Hiding?

I am beginning to wonder whether it would be better if i were to diguise myself and enter a different country for these three weeks. If exams were a person i think they wud either be beat up or indeed in there with loads of teachers, because its sure to say that no student in the entire world likes exams. The point? Ah yes "to see if you have progressed" the real point "to make u stress so much u might have a breakdown"

I am re-sitting English and Geography and do i know why? No! because i am Jane and i feel that i should have got a better mark, although i would have had to resit geography since they give me a U when i was ill. No compassion these exam boards.

Rough weekend that just passed there and i feel all the more ready to hop on a mode of transport to disappear and feel less emotionally drained. Who said being a teenager or indeed young adult was fun? I would like to hear their reasons why.

I should revise..... I will..... maybe... no! i will. I have to go and revise. U jus know i am going to log out of this and go onto FB or indeed play call of duty (no i am not a geek) Right books call to me and the sooner i get it done the better and then i can return to my sloth state and pretend i accomplised something today.

Jane, the one in the corner rocking back and forth.

The adventures of a stressed me

Jolly gosh with sugar on top. Its January. My birthday month. My christmas past without too much bother, when you get older and realise Santa is not a real human being that has the ability to live in a desolate and cold land while making toys that will be brought down a small chimmey to you, you begin to wonder what christmas (par the whole Jesus' birth) is really about.

So I can tick off christmas on my list of things to complete and now its 2010. Now this is a new thing. Do u say the whole number ie two thousand and ten or 20-10 as in two words. App its the last one and to be honest in the whole realms of things, I don't care. I never write the date anymore since I have completed school. Tedious conversation about dates is not required.


Now I am into January and its exam mode. I know i know! how dull and depressing but when i finish my exams i will be free as a bird that doesnt even have one of those locator tabs on their wee skinny legs. I need to hire someone to sit my exams, more chance of actually passing i would think and less chance of me needing to re-re sit my exams hehe.



I am wondering whether this blasted snow is actually a curse or a gift. I fear its either a curse from God or a gift from the Devil. Either one is not good in my mind. I am beginning to wonder whether there is any need for the icy wind that comes around every day and the crunchy snow that we have to so carefully walk on incase of black ice. Falling in these conditions is not only dangerous but blooming embarassing.



So off to revision land dear me goes. I might need a long holiday after this.