The Journey to Dublin

Today is the journey down for a outpatients appointment in Dublin. The whole day is pretty long but its normally at least a bit funny on the way down. The doctor herself is one class A bitch but then most of those people are. The picture is the hospital, although it pretty massive (the picture doesn't do it justice)

On other news I am making a scrummy looking banoffee pie in advance for a birthday party on Wednesday. I say scrummy looking because even though I make it from scratch, I don't actually like banoffee so I have to trust the judgement of my boyfriend and my mum (both banoffee lovers)

Well that's you updated for now. I will come back on later on tonight to blog some more.... hopefully it won't be too depressing because as I said before the doctor looking after me in Dublin is a right old bitch.

Toodlesss

Nouveau Look

Well I have updated the look of my blog and thought I would post again just to show you a strange collection of pillows. From a pair of boobs to a lap pillow, to a blood pillow and to a blanket that is made up of pillows. I tried to put four photos of them up but they kept disappearing in the post. So here is just one.... It made me giggle. Maturity Jane!

Good night

Gleedom

Now this might seem cheesy to some people but I'm really into glee music this season. I don't know why, but some of them are sooo catchy and then you seem a bit happier at the end of it. I must admit I am a tv addict in a strange sense, I only watch tv via my computer i.e. on catch up.

Do you do this? Am a loner on this one?

I love Gossip Girl, Glee, One Born A Minute, Shamless, Secret Diary of A Call Girl, Eastenders, 90210, My Big C, Friday Night Dinner.... I won't continue lol.

I am also a huge fan of ebay now. I just got a ebay account and I was scared of it at the start but now I'm loving it. The bargins you can find in it!!!

I won a bidding contest...between myself for a diary that usually costs £10 but i got it for 99p. Yes yes! i hear you say, "Jane that is normal for ebay" but I'm NEW to it, therefore you should all be pleased for me. Whoever even reads this.

I have posted about three posts tonight so hopefully I will start to once again get this blog back on track because I do love it. It's my secret world, yet it isn't because it's easy for you to find it.... like a note left in a pile of letters?

"I'm not lost, I'm not gone"

You know when you're in the mood for that one hug that makes everything alright? That's me tonight, but maybe I should invest in one of these pillows... Hug me much?

I have had a terrible day and I need a wee hug. I think that pillow would also work as a hug where you place your head on the person's chest (normally a guy mate or your boyfriend) Although the chose of clothing would need to be changed to a softer vest or something.

I want to get back to blogging and talking about things that interest me or updates on me living through my 20's now. GOD I feel old.

I'm also dieting and I have lost 4lbs, only taken me a month but I'm really happy about it. Makes me feel better about myself.

I got a ipod touch recently so I'm back to listening to music and I love this new artist called Regina Spektor... her music is sooo nice and the lyrics are amazing.

The title of this blog is from a Avril song but some of the songs I have recently listened to on her album really seem to connect with my current health situation and it makes me do that whole singing into the hair brush...

Now where did I leave my half bodied pillow?

Mise A Jour....

Update time. Over nearly a year has passed. I now go to university for marketing and I was doing well with the whole big C but unfortuately I have it again. Woopie for me! It just loves me too much.

Anyway I have had another six months or something of chemo. ESHAP this time. She is one bitch, five days every month or twice a month depending on how the dates fell for that. Meant hospital and me being attached to a drip. I sometimes think the most difficult part of the whole cancer experience (if you could call it that) is people not understanding.

The very first time I had the big C, it was like interesting and funny to a certain extent but the more times i seem to have to face treatments and things that are very painful, for example spinal taps.... the further away "normal" people seem to get and the more isolated I feel.

God... morbid much? On another note I'm trying to choo choooo along like a wee train. And so far I'm doing alright.

I just bought a journal for Dublin, because I'm going down there for a stem cell transplant donor style this time. ENOUGH OF THE BIG C I hear my brain scream.

On another note I got Avrils new album and its FABBBBBB. Really recommend it :) and i prefer it over Jessie J's ablum.

Ohhh and i got a wee car, call her Flow (black ford fiesta) loveee her. Still dating the Thomas boyyyy (two and half years)

SUMMER TIME

Finally i have made it to the summer of 2010. Cancer? POW! Exams? BAM!

Alas, the sun has been shining loads and I decided to update my weird blog that no one reads, but still good to keep a sort of log for your self when you want to feel embarassed about yourself.

Woh slow down....

I am loving "Metro Station" at the moment, I dunno why, but it has started to become a song that i replay all the time, Kesley its called and the photo is one of the lyrics, which to be honest in a soppy and totally loved up way I LOVE, whoever wud swim the ocean for someone is either gotta be madly in love or just a tank! I am going to go for ... TANK!

Update time i feel... well on my bday post (which i re-read..anger issues much?) i was greeted by a ex who actually (wont go into detail) somewhat proved his love for me, in some sort of manner. I dont want a public blog to become the story of it, even tho many dont read this BUT in the end i took him back. Gasps? Shocked faces? Hopefully not. I was told that i was "mad" and "walked over" but sometimes u gotta see whether things can change.

Finally! Oh finally! finished exams! Can i get a woo woo? And also got a new hammie called Oreo, dont know if i have posted about her but she is sooo cute :D If i have posted about her then she is still going great, give her fur a wee clip yday cus of matts due to her love of sawdust :)

Anyway I am basically still driving (beep beep) booking my theory and having fun. Got a letter for a open day at my new uni WOO WOO so i can't wait for that. BUT! something annoyed me this week! THE BANK MACHINE ATE MY FECKING CARD! like why?! Oh and i got the shingles...

App my life is more funny than exciting in terms of this post. What have we learnt
- Jane took back her ex
- She got shingles from coming off her antiviral
- She doesnt have a bank card at the moment and wants to shop soo badly
- She went to get her retainers checked and pretended they fitted and had to nod along wif the densist whilst her retainers sat in her mouth due to them being too tight for her teeth.... eek much?
- Jane is lovin metro station and the clothes in miss selfridges I.MUST.HAVE.THEM.

"Its going to get harder and it going to feel tougher so let me say that i love you...." (kelsey)